Its Time~

Salam..

Its nearing, my soul can hear it. The end of a journey, insyaAllah continued by another. Advancing sometimes seem to be good, but the drawback is that you might lose your focus if its done too fast. My projects are doing good, next semester is just around the corner while not forgettting my age also. :-

Planning on going home this 22th December, I wonder how long can I return as a student..and when will be the first time I shall return victorious from these 4 years? Its amazing how through these 4 years Allah brought me up to who I am today. At times I even dreamt of what happened during these years, the memories..sometimes joyful,sometimes...............painful.

However, we all knew..that everything that has a beginning has an end. In a few months there'll be the end of this level of study, and we all be away. It will all fade away, but I refuse to end up just like that. Planning to advance to another level after careful thinking, may Allah aid us, and provide the best way which we can safely trod in.

So, it wont be long before the finale..prep up your gears,and march to the frontlines! May this be the most glorious days for the years to come!

A good night~

 "Tatkala mentari terbenam, serentak itu bulan menjelang,

Bintang-bintang mula bersinaran, bersaksikan malam,

Menyusupnya ketenangan, mengakhiri penantian,

Menjanjikan keamanan, menamatkan keresahan"

I am sharing today that tonight is a very special night..I am feeling so calm, the air is so fresh and the night is full of serenity. Such nights, makes me feel enlightened.

I wonder if I can share this calm feeling to all, but the poem above describes all. It is a gift from Allah, and a very wonderful one..may one can feel His greatness in His creations.

Words are meaningful~

Salam..

Its morning here the time I wrote this..and I wish you all a fine morning. Recently nearly having a fever, praise to Allah that prevented there was no fever for me,yet. I can still write, and I can still share with you,that's more than good.

I wish to share something to you,dear readers. To learn something, spend some time on it. True,and anything learnt should be shared..even though some lessons are rough and unacceptable if thought logically.One of the lessons I named it "the lesson of words". Our words meant a lot even to ourselves, and as to how we kept and control the words before they are being muttered define oneself. We are still in control of our words if they are unsaid yet, but once the words are uttered, you are out of control. The words of the tongue could be sharper than a sword, as the consequences would be unimaginable.

Why did I state here that words meant much even to yourself? Your words shall lead to the soul, if the words are bad, you are treating your soul unwisely. Say only good, meaningful words and your soul shall be imprinted with goodness.A Muslim scholar once recorded to have said that before he went to sleep each night,he trained himself to remember the words he spoken earlier that day. He then would identify which words are not supposed to be said, and remind himself not to said them again the other day.

So again..before saying something,do control the words and only speak if there is a need. Cut off unnescessary words and refrain from spending more time with people who are too talkative. Spend more time with learnt people, observe how they speak and react to speeches around and trust me, there's so much to learn. Maybe some people would disagree with me but know this,you will learn the reason behind these words:

 "If talking can be imagined as silver, then being silent is gold"

Trust me :-)

Salam~

 

It's meditation time!

Salam...good afternoon to you lot.

A fine day today, so cold that I even got a flu today. No worries, not H1N1. Holidays started for the common people, and the time is ripe for relaxing oneself. Me and my mates been resting too, a tiring semester it has been. Recently just got back from Aidiladha holidays, there are much to share with all of you. Stories of escaped cows, endless sacrifices in days will be a good reflection of how relaxing it has been.

However, one must not ponder too much that he or she be at ease, It's a good time to learn or teach something. Lately I have been reading on emotional intelligence and some relationship books that are worth to be shared with. Later I post and share what I can. Hmm, and its nearing Jumaat prayer time now..so I guess I'll be going for now

Until next time..

Salam~

Crushing the opposition!

Salam..

The title do not reflect to any of you, but for my inner self. Perasaan malas mula menjelma slps tamat Product Launching day. I dont know, but I am loosing  slowly..Its been so, then I'll have to kick anything distracting from my options. So, decisions are being made bottom-up, and my project is already being conducted
Until next time~

Epilogue & Prologue of Mine

Salam..

Morning to everyone, it is a fine morning here. The 37th Slackers moved out already, staying in Bandar Seri Putra for this holiday for the purpose of FYP. It did give some old memories when we first stayed here, ehe..such memories..We' ll be here until January, hope many good things are in store for us :-)

Enough about that.So,out here today..I wish to announce our Product Launching Day was held on the 18th November 2009, at the Faculty of Food Science & Technology. It was an event of such, not too bold to say that it left us with good experiences. Out here too, I wish to express my gratitude to my group members.Its been inspiring with all of you around,that supported me in times of need.

You gave me hope when there is none,

You keep it up when others go down.

 Thank you all for relentless cooperation and very undying commitment to get it done. Your sacrifices made all our efforts worth it. I am lining out your names here as a total appreciation:-

Lau Hooi Ping

Noor Hidayah Mohd Isa
Low Chen Ney
Farhana Yusof
Goh Chun Foong
Syafika Rahmat
 Aswani Ayub
Noranida Adam 
Naemah Abd Aziz

"A grand prize to all of you"

Sincerely,

MOHD SOBRI

Back in The Field~

Salam..

A very good afternoon to you lot. Actually, i dun want to take exam today, i wanna stay home,but..hmmm seems like it was worth it. Praise to Allah, God of heaven and earth where all seek guidance from, that aided me.

It a brand new day for me, promising new hopes, hopefully for all of u too. In another two weeks, we are having "Raya Haji" or Eid al-Adha. Its good for having such celebration as a remembrance to Allah. The stories of sacrifices of the prophet Ibrahim (Abraham) and also for the pilgrims heading towards the Holy Lands (Mecca) for the Hajj. My father's younger brother (Pak Lang) shall insyaAllah be there too, and my prayers are to all that Allah aid the pilgrims' journey.

So until next time, need to "conquer a few more lands".

"The Dying Wish" (Originally :Upon My End)

As the words are being lettered,

Things already dissolving and fading,

For the cracking hourglass of my life,

Nearing its end, with so little grains left.

Yet there are still unfinished matters,

As akin as unfurnished furniture,

Of the once bustling life of mine,

That shall now forever long gone,

No more attuned with me,

Neither shall suit that little necropolis of mine.

Still there’s hope for those still breathing,

To continue the wills from the dead,

And to bear the visions of the living,

Promising there’ll be eternal rest for me,

From all the saddles that was left behind.

The last of my conscious is fading away,

My visions blurred, my breathing slowed,

Revealing me it’s my time to go away,

Stamping my miseries without delay,

Forgetting all, memorized by none,

Whilst your debt shall then be paid,

May them fairer than me all ways.

The Words of My Soul~

Salam..

A very good morning I wish you all today..with a very concerned heart. A strong wind came bringing some great inner challenges, praise to Allah none get past my rationality. It'd sometimes tuned my mood, tried to strike me down but I managed to stand. It seems that in time, many things could change but I didnt know so much in this little time permitted. Relationships turned bad, or better..things didnt turned out as we planned and ignorance of the true matter that lies ahead all confuses me, but I believe whatever is happening around, I hope that all will bring the best lessons and train me with patience.

Careful I must, so that my concentration for the time given would not be wasted..And I have a wish that whoever is reading this, pray for all of us the best of life. I am a young man, too foolish to be wise but not that foolish to be ignoring anything happening.I have feelings, I have moods, I have specific behaviours too. Maybe I am 2,3 years back of my actual age but I am learning with the thought of all my surroundings, and things happening shall provide me with precious lessons.

I do not know all of u that thoroughly, that I am no perfect, and I am not that wise. But know that I seek forgiveness from all, I learn to forgive for that Allah is The All-forgiving..I do have many, bad perceptions but all I must turn into good ones.

Enough about what I felt..Actually I finished writing a poem with a planned title of "Upon My End". But didnt bring it with me now, so couldnt write here yet..

So...Until Next time.
"The Time is Ripe"

A Cat and A Good LEsson

Salam..The story, shall be conveyed upon..

It was..no,it "is" a cat..if "was" the cat would had already died..And that this certain orange cat, had been around my floor from this early september. It started with so cute, so beautiful yet so adorable..making people all amused with the cat so much. I myself had stopped and taken the cat to my room to play and fill my time with it. It has been the center of attention that time, alluring all. UNTIL..

The cute cat dissappeared two weeks ago and reappeared a few days ago.Unfortunately with a life-changing look. Why did I said that, is because the cat lost function of one of its legs(capik), measles and all dirty..not that adorable anymore. It appeared as a cat who'd gone to war and forever changed, and I did not noticed why it had been here again with such looks. People no longer love to play and feed the cat anymore, they dont want to have the cat enter their room anymore. Some even chased away the once lovely cat.But the cat still stayed around for a few days more be4 no longer be seen..At first glance, I did not notice anything, but after the cat is gone..know I did what lesson it gave me.

That:
The cat, which is so adorable, cute is like this temporary world..when its new, its beautiful..everyone likes. All people put efforts in getting such..

And that the dirty, handicapped cat, actually a resemblance of a no-more fame, no more beauty..no one would want to approach such..all will put efforts in avoiding so..

BEgitulah..semasa cantiknya, semua org mahukannya..tetapi bila masa berlalu..tiada yg kekal..semuanya akn layu dn akhirnya akn disepak2 semahu2nya,dibuang sejauhnya..
Ambilllah iktibar bahawa harta, rupa dn masa kita akan hilang dari kita..seperti pengajaran dari si kucing itu..

So until next time. The time is right~

Leaves of autumn~

Salam..today signalled the first of one week rest for this soul of mine..Its been days with hardship and lack of rest, yet countering the urge to oversleep is still undone.Actually, when one already awaken..shouldnt be sleeping anymore when it comes to sunrise, right? Wake up when its Fajr. Finished with the last day of my task to monitor Product Development work, now I can have a nice rest, a decent meal and wah, a good night's sleep.

Been planning to go home this weekend until 7th Nov. My family, wait ya? I'll be joining the making of home-grown Roselle cordial there..nak minum! Right now finishing the last assignment this week, and then InsyaAllah I'll be home.

Also, for this tranquil time, is actually a period of autumn, where the winter if Allah wills shall come afterwards. A period where one shouldnt let one own's guard down. Always do proper things and prepare for anything to fill such time like this, rather than just sitting down doing nothing. Help a friend in need, learn new things, take time to think of lessons Allah gave around us. Our lives can be very meaningful..InsyaAllah~

Also, one thing I observed last week left a good lesson, I shall share it in my next post.

A Good Headstart and A Change of Heart~

Salam..

Here come the hard times..Bit and bit polishing my own mind, for the purpose of examination. Praise to Allah, one very good thing is that I just recently successful in blasting my way through 2 exams already, hopefully this good start means a good end too.

I wish to share something with all of you. I woke up one day, earlier in the morning and feeling bad about myself. It took me more than a few minutes to realize what's causing the disturbance. Having identified, I do know what was wrong. It all started with an advice of a companion one night before, more than a usual friend or even a best friend. It went straight to the heart.With aid from Allah, I came to be able to see..what was that disturbance that I woke up with, its the feeling of guilty. Its been flunctuating to make a decision..even at times I am with no proper standing, such embarassment..and it originated from a battered heart. Now its solidifying, no more regrets and upsets as much more important matters than my bad feelings.

So, enough for now~

-Gearing up myself again for the Product Development and warming up for my next paper-



Until next time~
Until the TIME IS RIGHT, now nearing~

Tense Build-up

Salam..its..its taking all my time away,no..not actually..if not I wouldnt be writing this..Exam's next week, and much more needed to keep the heat up. And so the call, the urge to visit my home sweet home.I wanted to, but there's all these things keep coming up, where does that leave my holiday? Thought would be having one but no, its no more long holidays. I'm already 22 years old, should be no trouble leaving home for a long time.But.............How I wanted to be at home this time, be with my family and the little "ninjas" waiting for a good snacking from their uncle..hehe. Do wait for me..

Thinking of getting home this 3rd NOV for 5 days. Collecting all my last strength and putting all in just two hour or slightly longer exam bothers me..Its like plz, can we have no exams?But that wouldnt do..Me, and all of you college students reading this should be arming yourselves for the coming responsibility. "Failure is not an option, but whenever it happens..we should learn the lesson".

Hmm, my stomach's growling..need some food.InsyaAllah be writing again later. All the best, and for my sis,Munirah reading this.."Kirim salam sama semua di sana, and tell them I'll be back in 3rd Nov".


Until next time~
Until THE TIME IS RIGHT~

Tides of Challenges~

Salam and a very good morning..

I havent been writing for so long, neither I know what all around me been thinking.It is a time of what-so-called meditation, I cannot write but after a while only..and now I am back.

Things are somewhat fast-paced. I even do not have time for my own self. Maybe its this period of spending study times while increasing responsibilities are causing this. It is the times of challlenges. By next week we would InsyaAllah already be facing the exampapers, oo I really want to face them..come on, come on. I'll seek Allah's guidance and pray for all with good intentions.To all, best wishes and may a great triumph be with us.

Enough about exams, lets talk the "lighter" things.. We in UPM here will be heldling FPD Launcing Day this coming 18th November 2009. Here today I am inviting fellow colleagues to attend this meaningful event..come, come..we'll wait for u.

The 37th Slackerboys will be moving out this semester holiday, to Bandar Seri Putra again. "Welcome back, boys" is what we wish when we arrived. I remember of the days there, the community life is very good and worth of being mentioned here. And that the ukhuwwah between Muslims there are good, we are deeply impressed and decided for another stay there.
So this is all I could write now, and I hope it will not be long until I am writing again.
Curing myself is within Allah's will, and I hope my soul will be at ease over time.


Until next time~
Until THE TIME IS RIGHT~

"To End The Wounds of The Past"

"Soul in Joy"

There are times where one could tell,

Of the many facial expressions today,

If I were the one you've come to seek,

For it is real joy one could feel.

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Warmth of smiles filled my days,

From the day I've fixed my feelings & decided it to stay,

Suited together in all kinds of play,

And yet not leaving in times of sway.

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Apples are sweet, limes are better,

But none could be much more fairer,

Clearing my day and lighting my nights,

With the lights of million stars that shines out with delight.

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Delight is just one that I could say,

Much more would'nt suit better ways,

For words will never feel what the joy says,

That given me happiness and strength for all my days.

(Actual date written-24th June 2009)

UNTIL NEXT TIME~

UNTIL THE TIME IS RIGHT~

Its Not Fancy~

Salam..its just another day and I am writing again..All are going good here, hoping so for all of u readers out there. Things will get hot with the coming of 3 in a row tests for 37th Slackers this week, may Allah aid us. All in all, this holy Ramadhan is very calm and soothing.Its never been like this all this year round, and I am really feeling good. Its like all my works and responsibilities becoming easier and lighter.

This has been a great help to my mind..(Hoped and prayed for all,too). There's much to think and to analyze this life, figuring out what 's the truth, what's the deceptions behind many things. Alhamdulillah, I will use this soothing environment and serenity from Him in probing this life better. Knowing what to touch,what not to be involved with, what is of immediate interest and what's not. I like to think that way, for this world has no limits in terms of what people could learn from. "Banyak pengajaran hatta sekecil2 perkara yg berlaku jika difikirkan berkali2, pasti dan pasti ada pengajaran dan hikmah baru". Trust me, there will be always valuable experiences for those who use all their senses to learn and improve themselves towards Allah, for the greater good.

Dear all, I would like to share one thing I noted. Recently I have been reading on some writings on Islam. I found out some were in fancy form. Its not the right way of speaking the truth when we talk or write about religious matters, when its being done as fancy as it could. We could never reflect the whole matter in concern when its fancy. I'll give all an example. It resembles a person who knows the sweet taste of a colorful fruit, and learnt to love it, but when trying to share with people the person gave the same,colorful fruit but with a bland taste. We might think for the purpose of attracting people, but know that, when we fancy the teachings, its like merendahkan ketinggian agama. Its not hikmah when we think so. "Semoga ada pengajaran utk saya dn semua yg mmbaca"~

So this'll be the end for now, I'll be writing later.

UNTIL NEXT TIME~

UNTIL THE TIME IS RIGHT~

Gearing up for the upcoming~

It's the 7th week...if u ask me what week is this now?

Its seems like the time allocated for me would be insufficient..

The burdens and responsibilities here have been causing great deals on me..

But I do know, that I would be supported by my friends here and there..

and everytime I remember that, I'll be standing back in no time..

It seems that this is a busy semester, no more fancy things..no more unattended matters..things are moving forward, and if any of you or me got left behind.. There'll be no excuses..Be wanting to do so many things at once, and got caught in the middle because of wanting so much perfection on everything..

However, there is much to be done here and I'd rather start now,

so..thats all for this time,InsyaAllah be writing more next time..

UNTIL NEXT TIME~

UNTIL THE TIME IS RIGHT~

A Remembrance of My Place of Peace

Salam~

Its nearing Ramadhan as each day passed, and by the end of this week..Moslems shall start one of the pillars of Islam, fasting during the month of Ramadhan. It is along wait, finally just around the corner. The month which good deeds and virtues (amal) are multiplicated, where Allah's watch over us with blessings, for He is the most Merciful and most kind of all.

I remember the early days when I learnt about fasting. Its all just about not eating, and at that time..kids (years ago) like me during Ramadhan never end it at the proper time. People call it "puasa sekerat hari". Reminds of my early days, when whole families fast together, go to terawih prayers and prepare for the next day. Oh again I am longing to go home. And as a reminder to go home this week, I am sharing these pictures during my last holiday and also for u people reading this. InsyaAllah I 'll be heading home for this weekend.

Until next time...

Until the time is right...~

Yours truly,

-Sobri-

Killing my own heart~

Days have passed..I dont know what's happenning around.Being occupied the whole week and did not even have enough rest. But the will of longevity is here..Apparently every time my spirit went down because of my troubled feelings, I am saved. I never got that downed until my work and my tasks are affected. Its all from Allah..Alhamdulillah. Constantly battling with my these undead feelings, I know I should not let it way against the truth..Its being done at the cost of killing my own feelings. Its kinda hard when you are on your own..its my own battle..Its like this all this time, I think..Sometimes I am thinking that I might not be the same person if I continue on like this..But it has to be done. No worries, to all who read this.The change is for good.My family prayed for me, my friends prayed for me..but know that I appreciate all of you.

My life will once again be back to normal, although only my character would changed..memories shall never be erased..but I am brimming to fulfill my life..to whatever it takes me. To friends out there..do your best, my prayers are for all of us..

Passing judgement to my own self..

The sword of light will once again be drawn..

In pursue of the time borrowed upon..

Before the all be consumed away..

For the one and only sole reason..

I locked my heart and my story..

So says a person who looks downcast..

UNTIL NEXT TIME~

UNTIL THE TIME IS RIGHT~

Its Complicated

I am writing this today to apologize for being unable to update my blog as promised..err,but i'll try again this late afternoon..Quite busy now..over and out

Finally~ Some Rest

Here I am...after the great exodus that took place at UPM.

Hmm..It was a once in a lifetime, I think..that one would be in that kind of situation.Almost everyone panicked and started packing after the order was giving to clear the bunkers and head to the shelters.So I did,went to buy my ticket..and finally my journey ended me at my home sweet home..after craving to go home for so long (Alhamdulillah). It was such a thrilling sight,seeing my father..with his C70 cycle picked me from the bus station. I am so thankful, and should serve my family with all I got..like a saying goes "Small arms,big heart". The smell and surroundings here,calms the heart and the bearer..and soothes the troubled feelings that always came by at times.

Guess what, the herds (goats,I mean) have doubled and there are new vegetables planted..and the greatest..newly renovated musolla..the sacred place of worship for Moslems here. Its a great change..and I am ready to continue the good changes with all I can.

Days passed, moods cherished,

Always awaited, forever wanted.

So my holidays went on very good. I am relieved of my heavy duty there (UPM) and even got a few fishing trips, emhm~ so many catches here..I love it here.

But now my holidays nearly came to an end.. tomorrow I will be taking a bus trip back to continue on my studies.Hopefully my battery will be fully recharged upon arriving. Hmmm..and time is running short here, and I will add new post tomorrow, with a poem (InsyaAllah) that I wanted to share with all of u readers out there.

Until tomorrow,salam and good night~

The Fallen Sob

This week..Allah had given me sickness. Its quite something but I still managed to follow up my classes..Until yesterday, I met my personal advisor (PA) and when she was giving me my project title, she made it clearly that I'm in no good condition. Then what happened was she "ordered" me to go and screen myself that I am free of anything short of H1n1. Owh,that's something..And I knew that she was influenced to do so because her daughter was sent back home from UiTM as for the cases there (did u people know it too?).

So it made me feel bad..I wonder "What if its me the reason UPM was to be closed or worst, quarantined?" and I decided to go and made sure everything was ok. Upon arriving, bah..there's so many people wearing masks,coughing and sneezing,its like a camp full of H1N1 victims (although only suspects,actually :-) ). Just entered, a nurse gave me the face mask..and it made me felt "No..!! Am I infected too?". I had to go to the counter to screen myself, carefully and truthfully answering every question asked. And because I lacked of one last characteristics of H1N1, <> the nurse said it might not be H1N1 after all.And so I waited like ordinary person at the PK.

U know what happened next?The doctor told me its not H1N1..God, I am sooo relieved at the thought of that. But the drawback it that he told me I am lacked of rest and was to relieve myself the whole day. Hmmm and finally I was out of there in no time, after being issued with so many medicines.

This is a week of something, since so many things happened. By the way, its more than just plain memories left..I had to live on, there are many more experiences waiting to be mine.

"May Allah always aid us, whenever and wherever we are"

-UNTIL NEXT TIME-

New Week? YES!

This week starts with a broad smile and an open hand for everything..This spells "GOOOOD" and I am ready to take whatever coming this week. My project is to be given within this week, and I am eagerly waiting to start doing it.

Everyone,on your feet..! There should be no rest until all works are finished.."STRUGGLE TIME"

"Undying Spirit"

Today, i will share what I have been feeling all this while~

My day started passively, in a way a lazy person starts. It was a feeling of wanting to do nothing but just stare at the window and wandering for nothing. It was simply a feeling of being deserted, being left behind. I felt this was caused by recent events, that tested my patience and decision making,may Allah aid me. But I do know..I shouldnt feel so..I am a student of knowledge, shouldnt be acting or even think of doing that.

It reminded me, of another advice from one scholar,of last week event..saying that learners of the holy book, al-Quran..should note that with it we learn of wisdom and not emotions. We must not put emotions in front of wisdom. Remembering that, put me straight back in the the line. I know there are feelings, troubled feelings that are not right..and I should learn to accept matters already happened and should plan better,may Allah aid me.

As time passes by, somehow praise to Allah..I just suddenly up the front line again..I ve gained my spirit back,my hope of redemption..and hopefully it'll last. I think I already gained enough strength of letting go too, as one person..that I really care told me.

"May our prayers be answered with God's aid"

Until next time~

"A Life-Long Lesson"

It was the end of last week, did I came back from one journey, and I would like to share what I can with all reading this.

The journey was a glimse of true brotherhood and Allah s.w.t had given me much to learn.
We, went there as students, learning all we can during that time. There were gathering of scholars, foreigners, VIPs, civilians, and also students.

As students, we are to listen and learn from the elders there.
One, Prof. Abdul Rahman, said:-

"Moslem students will initiate changes in the world (Allah willing), as students will be spread out throughout the world and bear the responsibility as representatives of Islam."

Also, he left three advices to students:-
"Students should follow these three things as your responsibility as a Moslem, first, pay professional dedication to your studies. Secondly, pay respect to your parents and teachers, no matter they are Moslem or not. Third and the last, obey your institution rules, we are represntative of Islam, world-wide."

Then, other scholars had left us also with food for thoughts, hereby I listed some for all of us....
One of them clarified what is sabar (patience) and what is syukur (graceful):-

"Apa itu sabar? Sabar ini bukan bila dipukul, lalu sabar dn x buat apa2, sabar ini menahan diri dari perkara2 yg dilarang Allah"

"Apa itu syukur? Syukur bukan bila Allah s.w.t beri nikmat dn kita sebut 'aku bersyukur kepada Allah', this is not syukur. Syukur ini ialah menggunakan nikmat Allah, apa yg Allah beri, dengan cara yg diredhaiNya"

(I will add others later, its time for class,until next time)

The End of an Era~ (Goodbye MPOB)

After action report of 26th JUne 2009
Its a long time after my last post, being lazy and busy and the same time,
unable to think for a while...on what to write,what to convey..

This week..signals the end of an era, an era of which I shall remember always, as I called it "The 6 month of Truth". This week..we ended our long journey of being a student at Malaysian Palm Oil Board. And I would like to share many things with those who read this.

I was just, a mere student out of college to embark on a quest of learning. Not knowing what's in store for me, not to mention what's to become of me. We (the 37th Slackers) came straight from the book, and thought that we were ready for all those things we managed to learnt be4. Yet, it was a no-man's land for all of us. I dont know, it might just be me actually.

I was...pretty so-called shocked,by being so-so serious the first week..hm it wasnt all my fault. Because the personnel there treat us quite unfriendly the first month i think.. Some even got scolded because playing songs from their laptop, wooo..quite scary the person was.

I met a Mrs Jamaliah there..hmm,and she thought I was soooooo serious again,hmhmhmh.Its not good for me then I decided to be flexible a bit. And u know, first day I called her "puan" and the next it was "kak"..ehe.Then my work begun as my SV told me "Go forth, find some patents on CBS and bring them before me!!"
And so it was..I was trained in the arts of laboratory methods and enjoyed myself.Most of my time,hmm when there's no work..(oh and its hard to find some rest,ehe) Mustaqim accompany me and we started sharing stories back then.

It was busy the first 2 months, almost everyday with the smell and the sticky goo of the chocolate splattering around my lab coat.I hadnt been able to get to know the others around and spending time.(Oh and I might call it "assabiah"). Then when it turns to March we got to know each other,might be I am the loser for being the last to get to know the other comrades around. Hmmm its quite some time, and just suddenly I cannot recall when was we started spending time,but on a few occasions, I could.

Among the first was Mior, my friend from LKM (Malaysian Cocoa Board) series of solo and accompanied visits there. We started gathering and another event was hmm Mior and my birthday celebration, not forgetting Amir's Birthday at PKNS (1st time being there,though).
We made and glad we had times for that. We went through many events, many occasions,many incidents that finally made us like bonded together.As time goes on, it was a lost to the "37th Slackers" (food science of UPM) when one after one batch of once unknown friends finished their training,until there was just us (UPM) left.

We were left by the the UniKL batch,then the UKM batch,although Us and Safina extended their time with us.Then come the replacements..We were honored to meet them. We had known them for some time, and the lists were:Ammar,Ilyas,Mochen,Izanie,Kavi@Kala,Izzah,Sofia,Suriani, and the latest two, Afif and Shahrul(Long list,huh?). Day by day, and things gone slower until the day we are to end our training days. The end was quite non-dramatic, being the remnants of us made a farewell feast for the OFTEC staffs there..Amir made a good, decent slideshow there..thanks mate,appreciate that.

Hmm,so it signalled off a final end, of our good days together,of our good friendship there.
Allow me to put a few pictures here as a token of gratitude for all of us:




and farewell,may all of us be better
"Until next time~"

To Uswatun and Safina: "U NEVER LEFT US"

The last remnants of UKM,
that resided and had been with us through our practical journey.
-Us no4 dr kiri,Safina no2 dr kanan-

Salam~

Its been a while since I wrote..
Last week, a bit,really a bit dizzy and have no mood in posting any.
So..
For this week, I'll be writing for the past week.

We lost two more friends, two wonderful and unique..each one of them..
MOst of us already know, but those who affected most were the "cheese-producing" students of under Dr. Karimah,MPOB..Those two were Uswatun Hasanah and Nor Safina.This shall be a tribute to them..

I remembered, their first days with us....
When all the students were trapped in the library..I could only see them sitting with Marone and Zaki@Max..Not knowing each other, hmm..its like they are close but cannot be reached.
Not until our life in the Bakery Lab started to rock!That we made things together,we've been doing great things together,and even spend time together in several occasions, the most memorable for them would be..the celebration of their last day at the cheese pilot plant..
Where the other comrades sang and dedicate songs for these two..
How I remembered them..
hmmm~


Safina~
She was a bit shy, and probably less talked with me,
Until the lst 2 months ago I think we started to be better..and knowing
And that I started to know that she had found great joy within this practical time,
And I am glad to be a part of the joyful things around her.
Also she always misunderstood my points and have a font in saying things half way (sorry Safina)On the other hand, she had proved she was so with us that she still came, even her time has already ended and be with us at the lab..how I am so grateful..Ha~A promise to her: A bar of chocolate..(no worries, I hold onto my words)Lastly she be4 she left..she gave us a present, no its 2 presents..Two big wall hangings (wooden decorations),tq safina~
As a token of gratitude..I'd suggested they hang one at the Bakery lab,
And the other one at the cheese plant.

Uswatun~
She was, less talkative the first months I think (btulkan klau salah,hehe)
And that she rarely shared anything with us
But we still knew that, she likes colorful things and is a very creative person
And at the same time I could say I noticed,
no.. everyone noticed she's a camera's best friend with...
With unbelievable face modes and the unique "peace" symbol,
whenever a camera focused onto her..
Also, a lot of colorful decorations she left at the Bakery lab a.k.a "Students' Lair"
During the last days, really...
So many times she shed her tears..I am so~ like loosing a life-long friend..
although beberapa bulan sj kenal.

So...my last words would be "U NEVER LEFT US"
That u two are always in our memories..we'll meet again,next sem..insyaAllah~

A Blackout~

Yesterday...
There was a blackout in this apartment of Seri Putra..and it so happened during the 9.15 pm..when people are doing their night activities. So~ Mior and me got frustrated as we are using our computers and suddenly, so-called "sentap jugaklah". Then we made ourselves to the verandah and start sharing stories..and hoped the power will be restored a.s.a.p.

But~~~
It didnt. So we got tired of waiting. Thats where the foods came in.. We did bought food from the "pasar malam" down there earlier..so we decided to eat it, "bertemankan lampu" flashlight from my rusty nokia phone..and so it became a flashlight dinner.How "kelam kabut" it was and we had food scattered (sorry Maru) be4 we cleaned it all..

Hmm~~~
Time passed by..and we made ur minds that the power will be back by tomorrow. Sleep was the best idea, and none of us preferred more than a good night's sleep after a tiring Saturday so-called stay-up (Ask Mior what he did), which I slept on the cool floor that made me sneezing the whole Sunday.

And~~~
At that time, both of us remember stories..of our ancestors..we talked about the gasoline-based lightings and lanterns that they used. Memories of the older generations whom survived without electricity..and yet just one day, no...its just one night and we were already complaining this and that.

Reminded me~~~
Of my father..that he used to study "bertemankan pelita minyak tanah" besides him. Really, the spirit of doing so,burns and ignites ny heart, that this man,now my father..had worked hard to help fulfilling my grandma's wish to be "berdikari" and be able to aid the family. Reminded me also all the things he had to do and sacrifice for the family. I was like.."terfikir", had I did anything that could make him feel better, and lessen the burden of the family? My time will come, insyaAllah...it will be my turn to return the favor..for my father. It was 1979 that electricity or so-called "karan" found its way to my village, its Kampung Padang Perak, A/Star, Kedah. It was really, a moment to remember (Aifa, I borrow ur famous phrase)

THE LESSONs I LEARNT THAT NIGHT WERE:

1. We should always be ready to accept anything that happens eventhough we had tried ur best..It might be our efforts, but what Allah determines will happen. Nothing precedes that.

2.That we always complain when we lost something..but less times we appreciate things around when the things are still available at that time. Think about others that might be in harsher condition than us.We'll be grateful.

3.My father, Muhamad Hasbullah..deserves to be valued here for his grim determination for bringing us up..we,ur sons and daughters all knew too well what had happened. Allah will grant u appropriately, and we will pray for u..now and always.

Reflection From My Own Mirror

I have a mirror, hanging on the old wall,
I have only been using it,
Since the past 2 years,

Before this, the mirror has always been there,
But i did not use it..

Why am I that stubborn?

The mirror, reflects me, showing me myself,

Of different faces in different times,

Of different angles of the same person,

Been showing me the past, present, but never the future,

Why,the mirror cannot show me my future?

The reflection way, always the same,
But the reflected person is not,

Being ashamed when my face wrinkled,
Being happy when mine shone,

But I do not know of what will my face be,
Each time facing the mirror,

Why, will a person ever be the same forever?

Seeing my own reflection,
Shown me of myself and made me wonder,

How I am to others around,
And what others would think of this man,

That differs each time in front of the always-true mirror,

Not knowing when will be my last time attending the mirror.......

Bila Manusia Berjalan dgn kejayaan palsu~

Manusia boleh berjalan di muka bumi,tp ketahuilah sebab anda mmpu berjalan di muka bumi adalah dgn izin Allah~
Manusia,termasuk diriku..sering terlupa di mana diri berpijak,
Tidak tahu di mana kemuliaan diri yg sebenar...

Seringkali~
Kita merasakan bhw mulia itu dgn byknya harta, mulia itu bila tgginya pangkat...
Dgn itu berjalanlah si manusia, dgn sombong dn bongkak merasakan kejayaan dunia itulah kemuliaannya,
Serentak itu memandang rendah manusia lain, sedangkan hny Allah yg tahu kedudukan hambanya..
Dan memuja2 dunia bagaikan ianya akan kekal selamanya, sedangkan dunia ini adalah ujian semata2...
Tanpa menyedari saat itu semakin hampir...

Lebih baik~
Merasakan diri xpunya apa2, rendahkan diri walau dgn sesiapa
Bersangka baiklah dgn sesiapa jua,dn jika ada rasa dengki buangkanlah kerana ia xbermakna
Pendekkanlah angan2mu..tiada siapa tahu di mana hujung hayat kita~


Dgn itu, bangun dn doakan semua agar diberi petunjuk oleh Allah, dn minta Allah kekalkan petunjuk~

TAKING SHELTER DURING THE STORM, AND LEARN TO RECOVER~

I wake up one day.And waited the sun to rise..And hoped that the bright day going to last for the whole day~


But then, as I made my way, searching for the path of my life and clearing the obstacles on the so many paths available~


I could see the horizon became blackened, strong winds blowing dark clouds towards my way, herald the coming of a great,tremendous storm..that~


Every time it came, it forced me to find cover, and the strong winds which always been smearing back my hard work of clearing my chosen path..even adding in new obstacles...


Even though many times I have experienced the storm, everytime it came back, it was like, "I have never seen or be in this situation...


Seeing the terrifying sight made me wonder.."Will I be able to take shelter when the storm comes, and will I be able to recover the path chosen,or start again trodding a new path"

All give me a good lesson~

"That I be patient in overcoming the storm and its effects, and be patient in recovering the chosen path of my life.."

Band of Brothers

P/s : Uzaini,Iqbal,Ajue..sorry for i didnt hv ur pic included~

After action report of today:

Its Friday, 8th MAY 2009
the last working day of this week

And it seemed to carve me straight,deep in my heart that there will not be the same people next week during our practical time..

Time passes by, showing that everything that has a beginning has an end~
It seemed like its just yesterday when I last met these friends

I still remember~
Where exactly I first greet these people..


Where first I met Mustaqim
In the registration room..I just knew it that it was a UKM student and that he will be borrowing my pen when I saw his wasnt in good condition.And so he did~
and we became friends and started even harsh jokes on the first day
A highly disciplined person,and always give but never ask anything in return
Much I learnt from him.

When I first met Aifa :-),
I knew she is a good person..and I knew she will think me as a verily arrogant person..and so she did.I first "tegur" Aifa when in a little "Demo Kitchen",asking the name and her course in U. But we did not tegur2 for 2 months.And that only I started to knew her when I started cooling myself down at the Bakery Lab,where it all begins..Where my mind becoming clearer and clearer about her,little I knew that what was to become..;-)
AND SO IT BECAME~

When I first met Ain
She wasnt so talkative..and hardly be able to "jumpa" in the so-called dairy lab
A hard-working person she is..finished her works fast and efficient..how I wanted to challenge the discipline shown

When I first met the Nutrition personnels,
There were 3 of em..Iqbal,Zaza and Ajue.
All of them wasnt really well known,er I wasnt so talkative also..heh
But still they are friends to be treasured.

When I met the Margarine Girls~
That had been with Mr Hanif for 4 months
They are Hadani,Nurul..
Whom I first met both in the margarine plant
They were hard-working and really struggled alongside Hanif

When I met this Farhah UniKL
That she was with Ain and Aini at the dairy lab
Hmm..drove a sporty car she did
And became a trademark..heh
But we didnt get to know much,sorry but it was an honor.

When I met the Analytical "ROCK&ROLL" personnels,
Uzaini,Fatin and Farhana..these were very friendly actually.And it was me that wasnt too friendly. All I knew they are people with future visions, and always wanted to go forward, challenging themselves to be better.

But not all is lost,since Uswatun Hasanah and Safina from UKM will still be here,if i am not mistaken until 22nd of May 2009..the last remnants of UKM.

Know we did each other, and much we shared..I shall be dedicating a poem to all when my mind is ready~
All I can say know is that I learnt much from our days together,how I remember and wanted to treasure all of u..

So be4 I end this post, I want all of us:
PRAY THAT MAY ALLAH GUIDE ALL OF US TO THE RIGHT PATH, AND MADE US ALL STAYED IN THAT PATH UNTIL DEATH~
It is an honor to know u all..and the honor will always be mine~

Sometimes..

One person is just someone,
Who wanted to see u but just bashing the gates..
Sometimes its just someone,
Who wanted to see u and walk past the gate but stopped at the front door without knocking..
Sometimes its just someone,
Who wanted to see u,walk past the gate,stopped at the front door,knocks but being impatience..that he left be4 u could open the door..
BUT~
There will be someone,that walks past the gates,knocks the front door,and patiently waited for u to open the door..
THIS ONE~
Is a true friend

The Sun Sets~

The days are numbered..our days..[Dedicated to All Practical Students of MPOB]

At times, we can smile or just smile,
When actually things are not they are,
When all seems starting to wither,
At the moment and peak of wonder.

There were times we shared the smiles,
In between the times when tears are shed together,
Let the pictures be the medium of remembrance,
That leads all but none to wonder and keep on wonder.

As the leaves came down from their holder,
The old ones shed, leaving young buds together
While the shadow of the sun setting behind altogether,
Until the moon came, giving hope and promises better.

Learn to let all go as they must,
Allow new things to grow as they would,
And accept whatever happened as it is,
And take with ourselves only good matters together.

Past Purposes~

Today... i got a few lessons

Good ones..always good ones...After action report of today:~

Came back to MPOB (Malaysian PAlm Oil Board)..really late,its a problem when many things got screwed up, "Blasts, my heart is burning coz i made an agreement with my friends,i will be a burden for my waiting friends." However these boys were extremely patience..my sincerest thanks to Ahmad Marwan and Najib, whom go to extreme length in getting me to MPOB.But everything happpened is from Allah indeed, we should accept whatever happens. Alhamdulillah,praise to Allah that always protect us..whether we know how or not~

Nearly passed out, I struggled to make haste and continue my work today.Pushed myself to the max be4 falling down at 12.45 pm today. Really,no energy left...

Met two new brothers today:~

Please welcome : Brother Ilyas and Amar from USM, 2nd year from pure chemistry.Made friends with this two..chat for a while and therefore we r now friends.

GOOD LESSONS TODAY:
1. Learnt to improve our patience,always useful..it'll be a big problem when one acts without thinking,or the actions were influenced by mere emotions.

2.The act of my comrades today,that awaits me,even knowing i will be very late..is truly a sign of true friendship. I will protect this relationship,with my prayers to Allah.

3.Smile,always try to smile even in the most harsh situations..that'll lessen other people troubles from thinking too much about us, and know that we have Allah~