Of All Those Days..

Salam..good day, everyone..

Dormant mood and challenges have been hard, at times even I couldnt find proper time to write. Sorry, downtime has been prolonged.

However, one should know that there's up and down in our life, just like "The calm after the storm". Here, I managed to force myself to write. Yup, its been a few months gap with my last post already. 

When news hit me regarding my project problems, I had been too confident that it would be temporary. Yet I waited and still allocate my efforts, although others sure that the other side have compromised us..leaving us just like that. An issue of commitment arises and some team members were forced to leave as the insecurity of the project's grant was becoming more evident. So much money were spent, and many more will if we were to let ourselves doing our projects under our own financing. Many had quit their jobs for this, and some were married too. They had to look for alternatives, and took a toll on their time. I was among the hard-headed person, trying my best to steadfast, but arising problems got in the way. Had to return to hometown, and  found a way to scrounge a small business for some time.

Currently serving in Klang, I had never looked back when I decided to take that job. This heart of mine bears a grudge for those time we were left to struggle, although sometimes along the way, news of the project finally progressing keep on coming. At first, I thought it was another rumor, too good to be true. I kept on continuing my silence, did not co-operate with them..with even more partners "abandoning the ship". Recently, I managed to attend an important meeting, and with reluctance had to accept that I am in "A road diverging into two different paths", one that in time I much choose the one that will lead me to my dreams. The risk is there, and I know indecisive will drag things further. I'll do my best here, even though the future is not certain.

Till that time and so on, I am sure Allah will guide me..as He always do.

So readers, till next time. (Hopefully, I will write another post asap too). Salam~

News Update: Do Ourselves a Favor

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Salam.

         Writing here in the middle afternoon is just not me, never done so..How I come to write this maybe the feeling of wanting to share. Sharing and if I am wrong, do correct me.

         Most people know to talk, and daily life requires so many things to discuss with, to speak out with, to be debated with. Information got exchanged, as do money in a transaction. News are everywhere, if not enough..internet provides us with almost soooo numerous materials that can be read. Where most information can be directly interpreted and already contain enough info, much more may require some homework. For example, a magazine publishing an article about an uncertain yet fraud in a company. Further to make things straightforward, lets say it happens in your country, regarding a certain product that is currently a favorite within local population. What happen is that as quickly as possible, the news will travel as far as people can spread them via all types of media available. Caution levels are increased firstly, thanks to the news..but what is in store for the effects to the company is yet to come. 

        While some would go to the extend of verifying the information presented..others might be unaware of the real issue behind. This is what I am concerned with, the spreading of news that is yet to be confirmed. Rumors are good for increasing awareness, but unverified information will deal damage if not contained properly.  Just imagine we are so actively spreading an unverified conviction that was later found not-guilty, what do we think have caused? Bayangkan pula, khabar angin tentang suatu penipuan dalam makanan yang kemudiannya didapati tidak benar. Berapa banyak kerugian yang ditanggung tuan punya perniagaan apabila jualannya menurun kerana kisah yang tidak benar itu disebar-sebar? Kita telahpun bersubahat menyebarkan fitnah. Should be shameful of ourselves. The effects of these happy-go-lucky spreading news will be amplified if we are involved in journalism. Those who do spread such stories as a profession should think about the possible outcomes of such information. How many people will read that? If you know better then verify the story first, go to length as you can because first of all, writing is your source of living. Think about how could you live by spreading such "gossips" or "rumors" and publish it, without the sense of oneself might involved in spreading "fitnah" all around.

          Dear readers, let us learn to judge first, and refrain ourselves from spreading such stories. We must learn to obtain the news from both sides first, and whenever possible verify it with our own capabilities. If we going to publish or tell something, let it be a verified one. If  not, ensure that we don't involve ourselves with committing possible sins, which we can simply avoid by not spreading such matters.

             Pray, that Allah do not blind our hearts and guide us. Have a good day. Salam.

Just Intervention~

Salam..

 

Few nights ago, I went to KLCC to "escort" my aunt invited for a show in Malaysian Philharmonic Room. Some nice rest too, spending the night by taking a good, cooling walk rejuvenating this bored soul (at that time). Very nice scenery :-).  Sharing some pictures too here.

 

 

Until next time.
Salaam.

I cannot stop here~

I am on emergency status. The results of a recent meeting hit me like the thunders. Cut off of my proposal money was a big shock. Tremendously affecting the outcome of the project. Currently allocating available resources and more funding, my resolve has never been stronger.  Everything gor to be reorganized..fuu. Allah help me..dear readers pray for the best. I invested a lot and will fight to the see a good start and good end of this.

Forward, together..for the betterment of our brothers and sisters worldwide.

If I Must, Hesitations Must Go~

Salam

The joint project Maru and I personally code-named "Super Nova" has been formally accepted and the government had shown interest in funding it. I did wrote that during the training period, the remaining 37th Slackers, Maru and Hanif will stand together if Allah permits our bidding in this. The many times headaches and skipping sleeps have been finally paid off. Alhamdulillah, Allah accepts all of us in our respective projects. My, the headaches are going to return again, but I promised myself not to skip sleep anymore. The way we wanted to be capable of joining others that has fast forwarded earlier in amal.

However, the approval of our BP proposal did not come without hesitations. Abide the good news suddenly I remember the training days where I think I am another person (adapted personality) doing so just to survive there. I can recall my awkwardness that I am not good at socializing, but I made my best there. I am not a good actor, but I strive myself. I am not even a good decision maker, I know I must be so forced myself to learn and start becoming one.  I dont like to demand, but matters there required so, so I had to do it, along with a few more personality-changing objectives. Along the way, I got my aggressiveness, maybe unusual caution and even dismissed feelings, people or of my own when its decision versus feelings. Not to mention the "more socialized" me most notably..often during the training thinking I had to do it to temporarily. The unusual anger, the pretty demanding me back there. Like "If it needs to be done, it must be done". But remember I did not enjoy doing those personally. When the joint program ended, the "I-must-change" momentum back there slowly dissipated when I returned to my village and had to spent some time to be shake off these unusual characteristics to be myself back. Allocated some private times rethinking of who I am before the training and evaluation, and even astonished to believe that I had been like this and that there. And I think I am can only share this matter through this blog.

Earlier this week, I've been called to report back in. It looks like those days will come back. The days where we know challenges are always overwhelming, and I wonder to what extent this time? Maybe some will think I will be selfish along the way, but I'd rather think Allah knows my intention. The fact that during yesterday's consultation revealed the market value of the project is much higher than what we originally proposed, revived the momentum. I will go to the extremes to adapt to the potentially harsh challenges,  but I will remember I am a Muslim. I am not those who do not even have moral values in doing business. If there's a need to change again, I must do so, even though permanent this time..but  I will try to remember:-

That I should work to please Allah s.w.t.

That I would care more for our Muslim welfare

I wrote this so I will remember

Maybe I'm too ambitious, but I will strive to materialize my intentions.

Who Shall Reveal Me The "Truth"?

Salam..

Currently dedicating some of my time to collect enough data for a new post, this one should address against deception that had been around for some time. Its time to purge these false doctrines out of our knowledge and replace them with a new one. InsyaAllah I will report my findings in the near future.

The Forgotten Meaning of Education~

 

Salam..

How's today for dear readers? May Allah s.w.t have mercy for all of us, and eases our daily chores. A bit recovering from the "body weakness"..I found that I have to work out more as the more I do physicals, less tiring my body is in normal times. I also started taking energy boost drinks, and by the permission of Allah, keeps me up a bit and becoming better everyday.

A sermon from last Friday's prayer..had talked about a method in fiqh regarding "matlamat tidak menghalalkan cara" or whatever purpose does not permit ways against the syariah law. The "khatib" or the person giving sermon emphasized the matter in ways that many would not dare say against, since I found that he only read the part of the text given. Mostly sermon text were moderated, maybe for reasons far dated back in the age of caliphates where sermons sometimes caused uprising and so on. He stated that its already a common way, those who did it, almost unwittingly has to admit its well practiced in many countries, sadly Muslim countries. Many of those with political ambitions have been proven (did you know about those cases?) that chose  to disregard legal ways permitted by Allah s.w.t..Also many of those with power/authority had been freely misusing their position. (Remember the recently caught Customs officers' case). While on the other hand, even more of those in the business field kept on doing "mengurangi timbangan" just what Allah s.w.t had prohibited..even cheating customers. 

And yet those doing this will keep practicing this, until their days are off, or their lives are taken. Hopefully most will repent or given Allah s.w.t forgiveness should they seek for one. Since when we "should" had forgotten what is allowed/prohibited? Commonly heard excuses are "Common practice?" "Macam mana mau untung?" I know to certain extent that even Muslim traders cheat on their customers.. I am involved in a few trades, and also a personal experience of being a witness to a "politik wang" scenario in Malaysia. Why all these? 

The sermon continued on to link this matter to the perception of education in the so-called "real-world" today. All that we knew today is to get our sons/daughters good education, but actually what were given are mostly "fardhu kifayah". I know, current knowledge on today's world is very important.. but we must not forgot about the urge to continue on study and the importance of compulsory "fardhu ain" education. When we mostly stress on roman alphabets, we forgot about the words of the Quran. When we stress about business and work, we forgot about the need to learn first about Islam's permitted ways regarding those matters. Above all, we pursue our degree, masters or phD, but we often forgot about the need to constantly gain "fardhu ain" along the way. We thought we we finished those as desired levels of education above, we are done..no more learning. Maybe the thought of having "dah ada orang belajar dah" or "nanti-nanti tua sikitlah" mindset is there. That's where the "matlamat menghalalkan cara" came from. We learnt the skills for our specialized work/job descriptions but we forgot Allah's guide, which Muslims should follow accordingly.

The sermon then reminded all present there to start gaining what was lost, and that those who had been involved in unlawful acts to repent. My advice is that let us do what Islam requires us to do, to our own extent. Disregard challenges to stray from Allah s.w.t permitted path. We are not like those people who work without any base guidance, or worst by not having moral principles in doing business. Allah knows best, and we should seek guidance only from Him..not making our own guide. 

"Never wait to repent until its too late.."

Till my next writing. Salam~

Sense of Weakness~

Salam~ 

Its been quiet these few days. Things seemed to slow down. No strange things currently as from my last entry recorded, alhamdulillah. Still living with my small business here. Keeping business up requires frequent travel..almost 3-4 times a day might be not so good for this body. I am sharing that since last week, I have been in a constant struggle against my own body. Its always against the race to catch up time for sales, for materials. Until now, I still feel very weak. Even for some basic things its like forcing my body to complete the task with excessive energy. The only thing that keeps me going is the very urgent need to maintain customers demands on time and of quality. Maybe something wrong with my body, since I knew well about my endurance before this.

Also, I am thinking of maybe the foods and less frequent of physical activity recently. Although I am trying to regulate my food, and fire up more physical activities..seems like there's a need to increase this. A few "accidents" have already occured because of my "extreme fatigue". I still pray to Allah to solve this, and I am going to ask from dear readers out there, hope of the best and do pray for me to get well soon. Think thats all for now. Already sweating as I've spent my time typing this entry. 

Till next time~

.....Salam....

Truth is Life-Changing

Salam..

Forgive me for not writing for so long. For the time being, got myself involved in small scale business operating from home. Home has been nice, especially because of the village area left almost unchanged for 20 years. Just nice enough, until I learnt a truth that the place was built up with devotion of human being to "something" other than Allah s.w.t. I have always been interested on how villages were founded on the first place. Remember, nowadays its easy because of the presence of machineries and tools. But how did human beings with outdated, even some stories did it with bare hands cleared out forest for the first place? Moreover, how community watch was done those days? Hiring private guards, CCTV?

For all the matters above, I wasnt there..and maybe would not know that until recently "disturbances" occured for some time. Many of the other houses experienced some kind of unexplained phenomena, alhamdulillah..Allah s.w.t protected me for the time being. The peak of the issue I am trying to explain to you is when my own grandmother stated she started to see "unusual" visuals and flashes of images normally unacceptable to us.But when I met the neighbours and swapped stories, clearly there is something strange. My grandma asked to be taken to meet a certain person (Bomoh) who knows of these origins and I asked why. She said the knowledge that person possess would insyaAllah will explain and may further eradicate these disturbances. I took her, but not directly, my grandma left with my father..along with my mother to seek some advices and guidances in the ways Islam permitted. The visitations lasted for a week, but the first day was quite shocking. I was asked by my father to recite some prayers and "ayatul-kursi" while opening all windows and doors, and was given with a large amount of salt to be distributed around the house. We did so, but the process did leave me feeling uneasy until today. I kept remembering the upstair room where that room give me a very unnerving aura that day when I sprinkled the salt inside. The room was not opened for months now until the day we opened it. Allah s.w.t knows..He is all-great..I know nothing.May He protect me and my family.

Then, after visitations to the particular person ended, I asked my grandma what happened there. This is the part where she revealed the story of how the village was founded. Those days, the founders were Muslims but lacked of knowledge and wisdom to differentiate "amalan yang betul dan yang tidak". They had learnt from somewhere/some people, knowledge of which now we know forbidden, to summon "things" and provide them with what they need. Among those, there are those who asked for strength (maybe for clearing forests and rocks), asked for guardian (s*ka, maybe). And all these "leftovers" never did leave the world yet as the original summoner already. This is what left, and from the stories revealed during interrogation upon summoned done by the "bomoh" to a few of my family, shocking news revealed that some were the results envious man that summoned these. I should not reveal why that happens. With that, that "bomoh" helped to cure partially, with the permission of Allah s.w.t did managed to reduce the disturbances until now.

Currently, I am writing in the very house I am telling you about. I'm sharing with you this because I wanted us to keep our believe and fear only to Allah. Its true, I am afraid, but must ask guidance and protection from Allah s.w.t. We all must, and keep our envy at bay..do not ruin other people's life. Allah s.w.t knows. Good rewards is for good deeds and bad rewards and punishment awaits those who dare worship other than Allah s.w.t. That is all for this entry. The surroundings are pretty dark here, my hands are shaking already. Although I can still joke with readers out there, but I cant hide the feeling from here. Will update on further news, broadcasting to you live from "the exact scene".

What's The Rush?

Salam

Good day..even though mine is not as good. Nearly got hit by a car today, I am very pissed off. Its not my fault. Accustomed to the calm and against "pesky" environment, I would be easily disturbed upon being in a road-congested condition. Currently on standby in Gombak, I believe I have spend sufficient time to get to know my surroundings. Traveling around is a must, almost my daily chores. 

For one thing I noted most, the traffic really bothers me. What should supposed to just become a congested road/highway would be a life-and-death situation. Accidents are common here.I have been in various conditions trying to evade and prevent accidents from materializing. I do not know what brings people to RUSH as if they are the only ones with important matters. In some situations I managed to put a quick glance revealed what I called "Ambulance-in-action".  

More problematical is that I cannot unjustly put the blaim on everyone on the road, with some maybe having true emergencies. I believe there's major irresponsibility shown by the various road dwellers daily. Some are indeed attributable to the "stupids-always-rushing" types, purposely do not want to care for others around. Yang menjadi masalahnya, kesalahan2 sebegini dapat dilihat jelas, bagaikan di Malaysia begitu biasa seolah-olah tak ada adab. Minta maaf kalau menyinggung sesiapa yang membaca atau terbaca tetapi diri ini tidak boleh melihat tanpa menyebut walaupun sedikit. Yang kelam kabut dengan kerjanya, salah siapa? Yang xmahu pakai helmet dn berlawanan arahnya, akal di mana? Yang egonya, besar sgtkah diri itu? Jangan kerana "kekurangan akal" kita, orang2 tak bersalah menjadi mangsa. Baca doa naik kenderaan, jaga keselamatan diri dan pengguna lain sekitar kita, pun xdapat?

Currently I found a few way to "teach" these wrong-doers on the road, real time (on-the-go). I will catch up with the vehicle, knock the transport's mirror and give signs accordingly. To those "verily" busy, like answering call or replying sms on the move, I show the sign no phone. I purposely rush to the front of "crazy" drivers and block them for a while and show the sign to slow down. I even showed the helmet sign if I found those "steel-headed" motorcyclists. I managed to alert some, and although some come with negative responses..I do not care. Remember before you make a life-threatening decision on the road, where the "someone" might be your family/relatives.