The Fallen Sob

This week..Allah had given me sickness. Its quite something but I still managed to follow up my classes..Until yesterday, I met my personal advisor (PA) and when she was giving me my project title, she made it clearly that I'm in no good condition. Then what happened was she "ordered" me to go and screen myself that I am free of anything short of H1n1. Owh,that's something..And I knew that she was influenced to do so because her daughter was sent back home from UiTM as for the cases there (did u people know it too?).

So it made me feel bad..I wonder "What if its me the reason UPM was to be closed or worst, quarantined?" and I decided to go and made sure everything was ok. Upon arriving, bah..there's so many people wearing masks,coughing and sneezing,its like a camp full of H1N1 victims (although only suspects,actually :-) ). Just entered, a nurse gave me the face mask..and it made me felt "No..!! Am I infected too?". I had to go to the counter to screen myself, carefully and truthfully answering every question asked. And because I lacked of one last characteristics of H1N1, <> the nurse said it might not be H1N1 after all.And so I waited like ordinary person at the PK.

U know what happened next?The doctor told me its not H1N1..God, I am sooo relieved at the thought of that. But the drawback it that he told me I am lacked of rest and was to relieve myself the whole day. Hmmm and finally I was out of there in no time, after being issued with so many medicines.

This is a week of something, since so many things happened. By the way, its more than just plain memories left..I had to live on, there are many more experiences waiting to be mine.

"May Allah always aid us, whenever and wherever we are"

-UNTIL NEXT TIME-

New Week? YES!

This week starts with a broad smile and an open hand for everything..This spells "GOOOOD" and I am ready to take whatever coming this week. My project is to be given within this week, and I am eagerly waiting to start doing it.

Everyone,on your feet..! There should be no rest until all works are finished.."STRUGGLE TIME"

"Undying Spirit"

Today, i will share what I have been feeling all this while~

My day started passively, in a way a lazy person starts. It was a feeling of wanting to do nothing but just stare at the window and wandering for nothing. It was simply a feeling of being deserted, being left behind. I felt this was caused by recent events, that tested my patience and decision making,may Allah aid me. But I do know..I shouldnt feel so..I am a student of knowledge, shouldnt be acting or even think of doing that.

It reminded me, of another advice from one scholar,of last week event..saying that learners of the holy book, al-Quran..should note that with it we learn of wisdom and not emotions. We must not put emotions in front of wisdom. Remembering that, put me straight back in the the line. I know there are feelings, troubled feelings that are not right..and I should learn to accept matters already happened and should plan better,may Allah aid me.

As time passes by, somehow praise to Allah..I just suddenly up the front line again..I ve gained my spirit back,my hope of redemption..and hopefully it'll last. I think I already gained enough strength of letting go too, as one person..that I really care told me.

"May our prayers be answered with God's aid"

Until next time~

"A Life-Long Lesson"

It was the end of last week, did I came back from one journey, and I would like to share what I can with all reading this.

The journey was a glimse of true brotherhood and Allah s.w.t had given me much to learn.
We, went there as students, learning all we can during that time. There were gathering of scholars, foreigners, VIPs, civilians, and also students.

As students, we are to listen and learn from the elders there.
One, Prof. Abdul Rahman, said:-

"Moslem students will initiate changes in the world (Allah willing), as students will be spread out throughout the world and bear the responsibility as representatives of Islam."

Also, he left three advices to students:-
"Students should follow these three things as your responsibility as a Moslem, first, pay professional dedication to your studies. Secondly, pay respect to your parents and teachers, no matter they are Moslem or not. Third and the last, obey your institution rules, we are represntative of Islam, world-wide."

Then, other scholars had left us also with food for thoughts, hereby I listed some for all of us....
One of them clarified what is sabar (patience) and what is syukur (graceful):-

"Apa itu sabar? Sabar ini bukan bila dipukul, lalu sabar dn x buat apa2, sabar ini menahan diri dari perkara2 yg dilarang Allah"

"Apa itu syukur? Syukur bukan bila Allah s.w.t beri nikmat dn kita sebut 'aku bersyukur kepada Allah', this is not syukur. Syukur ini ialah menggunakan nikmat Allah, apa yg Allah beri, dengan cara yg diredhaiNya"

(I will add others later, its time for class,until next time)